Whaaat? after wanting to for so long? I even downloaded a VPN so I could attend truly anonymously, haha! I signed up as the Finance Phobe. So what happened?
You may have read that I’m studying UX Design. So the good news is, I attended a virtual design conference on the same day, as myself, and I joined the group’s online design community. No screen names, just real me joining a community that will hopefully lead to me getting a better job before quarantine ends! When quarantine ends, I do not want to be in my current day-job-but-it-gives-me-health-insurance situation with barely any time freedom. Right now I’m practicing intense gratitude, trying not to be spoiled, feeling guilty for being safe at home, and trying to appreciate just having a job and every little thing I have.
Only 10 minutes. Anyway, Millie magazine (a new financial publication that just came out in print, though I read it digitally) just recommended a book by Jennifer Risher, We Need to Talk, A Memoir About Wealth. I plan to read it soon. It made me think wow, I wonder how it would feel to not have a constant state of worry about money?
Related to this, Saturday morning I was thinking about my scarcity upbringing and how it’s shaped me, and it really struck me, I don’t think it’s healthy to be always wanting, not getting. Being in a perpetual state of longing and stuckness is just so, so unhealthy!
I fought this emotion, and finished a YouTube video I was working on for my business channel. And I posted a pretty good but imperfect, edited but unprofessionally unpolished version to the web! A group of teachers is following me for my side hustle and I wanted to post some good content. So there! I posted something, and it wasn’t perfect, but I got moving and did it! Yaaayyy!!
Time’s up! Do you have any dreams deferred?
